Well i fly to Edmonton tonight.
Does anyone know of a job paying around $18 an hour in town i can start so i don't have to leave?
I don't want to go. I hate the unknown. I know it'll be better once i'm in a camp and situated and know what i'm doing. It's just this up in the air part i hate. I know i have 90 minutes of orientation tomorrow morning, but after that i have no clue where i'm going, or when. I could be in a hotel in Edmonton for days waiting. Then once i do get sent to camp I have no idea where it'll be, if there will be internet etc.
It's scary. But I decided this piece of shit city wasn't doing anything for me, so I have to do what I can to make a future for Candice and I. It sucks that it means i'm leaving for 3 weeks a month, but it could be a lot worse i suppose. At least i'm not in the military or Navy...i'd be away a lot longer.
So in closing, later folks. I'll be back to town sometime in March. If i didn't get to see you before i left i'll try and make it up to you, but in all honesty i'm a flake and most of you never see me anyways.
J
also check out: http://rooftopseven.blogspot.com/ My future webcomic!
2/28/12
2/22/12
Future.
In 5 days i leave behind everything i know for a temporary life of work adventure.
I will be flying to Edmonton for orientation on the 29th of this month.
Then after that, hopefully within a day or 2, I will get shipped out to a camp somewhere to work for 3 weeks.
Crazy.
Well it actually isn't that crazy, people do it all the time, but it's crazy for me. It's the longest I'll be away from Candice other than the time she went to Peru, and even then I could be away longer.
I'm a little scared to be honest. It's all the unknown that worries me: Will I have Internet so i can stay in contact with Candice and friends? Will it be a small camp where I am basically lead cook (that possibility is there)? Will the money be good enough to make the 2 flights and possibly 2 hotel stays a month worth it?
But they say if shit isn't scary it probably isn't worth doing. So i guess the terror and anxiety means it will be a good thing. It will help pay all my bills off and support my extravagant lifestyle (i.e video games and nerd things).
So yeah. 5 days. Jesus.
I will probably be updating this blog while I am there, so there should be some great stress and loneliness related posts to come...if i have Internet :0
J
I will be flying to Edmonton for orientation on the 29th of this month.
Then after that, hopefully within a day or 2, I will get shipped out to a camp somewhere to work for 3 weeks.
Crazy.
Well it actually isn't that crazy, people do it all the time, but it's crazy for me. It's the longest I'll be away from Candice other than the time she went to Peru, and even then I could be away longer.
I'm a little scared to be honest. It's all the unknown that worries me: Will I have Internet so i can stay in contact with Candice and friends? Will it be a small camp where I am basically lead cook (that possibility is there)? Will the money be good enough to make the 2 flights and possibly 2 hotel stays a month worth it?
But they say if shit isn't scary it probably isn't worth doing. So i guess the terror and anxiety means it will be a good thing. It will help pay all my bills off and support my extravagant lifestyle (i.e video games and nerd things).
So yeah. 5 days. Jesus.
I will probably be updating this blog while I am there, so there should be some great stress and loneliness related posts to come...if i have Internet :0
J
2/7/12
where the puck is going...
Well last post i talked about some big changes happening.
I guess now that they are mostly concrete i feel safe letting it all hang out...
Today i gave my 2 weeks notice to UVic. I loved the job back in the day, but management had different ideas on what would take them into the future than i thought they did. In retrospect they probably made the right money decision, which is what it's all about in the end.
So once i started working only 4 hours a week, and the rest of the time waiting idly by the phone to get called in for a shift, i decided it was time to fucking do something.
It took my time, because...well I'm me. I applied at some places in town. Which is hard. It's hard to have to look for a job at almost 30. I feel like a loser because I've never had to work for work before.
UVic also spoiled me on cooking. I don't think i could go back to the typical restaurant/pub grind anymore. I don't want that stress.
So it has slowly come to this.
On the 28th of this month i fly to Edmonton. To start cooking in camps.
"Ugh! Why? Are you crazy?" you are all saying i'm sure.
Maybe I am.
It's going to be a huge change for Candice and I. 21 days in, 7 days out. For the foreseeable future. I would like to somehow be able to work through till August and call it quits, but there are layoffs in Spring/Summer, so it may only be for a few months.
But the money is SO worth it. Enough that within 6 months i would have no debt. That is an amazing thought. I have had debt as long as I can remember. Shit, I had like 4 Columbia House accounts in high school.
So yeah that's the big change. It's a sacrifice, but in life you have to make sacrifices in comfort to move forward. I am finally learning that. If something like this isn't scary it's probably not worth doing. This is what i have to do to secure my future.
Kevin Smith said something back when he started making Red State that has really stuck with me. He said we surround ourselves with people who say "why?" all the time, and end up in that habit at every idea we have. "Why quit your job?", "Why try that new thing?". Instead we should be asking: "why not?"
"Why not quit UVic and go work my ass off in a camp to make for a better future and marriage?"
"Why not up and move half way across the planet to experience life?"...more on that in the future...
He and Joe Rogan, through their pod-casts, have helped reshape my thinking on a lot of things, and on how I live my life. You may laugh it off, but for me it's been a good and positive thing.
Plus what's the worst that can happen? I go and hate it and quit. At least i tried, it's more than a lot of people can say.
So yeah. 84 hours of work a week. It will kick my ass into gear for a job anywhere else, if nothing else :)
Then wedding in September. Then after that, who knows.
Maybe move to the UK or New Zealand... :)
James.
I guess now that they are mostly concrete i feel safe letting it all hang out...
Today i gave my 2 weeks notice to UVic. I loved the job back in the day, but management had different ideas on what would take them into the future than i thought they did. In retrospect they probably made the right money decision, which is what it's all about in the end.
So once i started working only 4 hours a week, and the rest of the time waiting idly by the phone to get called in for a shift, i decided it was time to fucking do something.
It took my time, because...well I'm me. I applied at some places in town. Which is hard. It's hard to have to look for a job at almost 30. I feel like a loser because I've never had to work for work before.
UVic also spoiled me on cooking. I don't think i could go back to the typical restaurant/pub grind anymore. I don't want that stress.
So it has slowly come to this.
On the 28th of this month i fly to Edmonton. To start cooking in camps.
"Ugh! Why? Are you crazy?" you are all saying i'm sure.
Maybe I am.
It's going to be a huge change for Candice and I. 21 days in, 7 days out. For the foreseeable future. I would like to somehow be able to work through till August and call it quits, but there are layoffs in Spring/Summer, so it may only be for a few months.
But the money is SO worth it. Enough that within 6 months i would have no debt. That is an amazing thought. I have had debt as long as I can remember. Shit, I had like 4 Columbia House accounts in high school.
So yeah that's the big change. It's a sacrifice, but in life you have to make sacrifices in comfort to move forward. I am finally learning that. If something like this isn't scary it's probably not worth doing. This is what i have to do to secure my future.
Kevin Smith said something back when he started making Red State that has really stuck with me. He said we surround ourselves with people who say "why?" all the time, and end up in that habit at every idea we have. "Why quit your job?", "Why try that new thing?". Instead we should be asking: "why not?"
"Why not quit UVic and go work my ass off in a camp to make for a better future and marriage?"
"Why not up and move half way across the planet to experience life?"...more on that in the future...
He and Joe Rogan, through their pod-casts, have helped reshape my thinking on a lot of things, and on how I live my life. You may laugh it off, but for me it's been a good and positive thing.
Plus what's the worst that can happen? I go and hate it and quit. At least i tried, it's more than a lot of people can say.
So yeah. 84 hours of work a week. It will kick my ass into gear for a job anywhere else, if nothing else :)
Then wedding in September. Then after that, who knows.
Maybe move to the UK or New Zealand... :)
James.
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